out of the box

2006-04-02T11:56:00.000+08:00

i don't knw what t do anymore.

2006-04-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

new blog? too lazy t make one. make it private? no idea how too. AIYO, CHAM LA.

2006-01-18T11:09:00.000+08:00

sorry i can't be perfect.

2006-01-05T11:03:00.000+08:00

life is.

2005-12-25T13:53:00.000+08:00

it's here, christmas. won't be sending greetings t most people. what's the point of wishing merry christmas when you are nt a single bit close t feeling merry. more of sorrows i have this christmas. i feel so disconsolated, no shoulder t lean no, no nothing. nothing left.

even when i thought today would be a pleasant day ahead. oh wells, so long as your happy. i'll be fine, i guess.

what's left of me. everything i do just seems t go bad. AHHH, lonely christmas.

leave me here t die.

i want t go drink my sorrows away. anyone?

2005-12-22T10:44:00.000+08:00

i feel so lost, it doesn't seem t get better. ='[ i want you t be happy, even if it means me being sad.

i no longer have any mood t work, dragging myself there now. if only i could quit.

there's only one wish i have now. argh, i wanna die.

2005-12-20T19:39:00.000+08:00

i've never cried in a train before in my teenage life, never. but after today this wasn't the case.

it's hard t last in our position. both working, staying so far away from each other. but all things are possible if we work hard on it, i believe we can. we've gt to work TOGETHER as one, just you and me, give and take. i just wish that you'll never leave. we've got t overcome it,we have to.

i love you kerny. i hope you do too.

2005-12-19T00:13:00.000+08:00

started work (: i finally have smth t do now. lucky it's at woodlands near by -phew! new people new friends. bought a pony shoe,levis jeans and more. so broke now :/ my pay will be like end of januray? RAHHHS.

to kerny :
i'm sorry!! i knw your unhappy with me working and we won't have much time tgt now. but thank God i'll be free on christmas :D your gone in CCK! argh, damn. but you'll still be loved (((: massage your feet! (i need t get mine massage too)

gotta get t bed. full shift tmr (yawns) the mroe i see the jeans each day the more i get tempted t buy. got t rmb all the types of jeans. 599.593,577,581.579.581.582 ok la more t go so damn confusing. i want the levis square cut jeans, not the boot cut, slim will do!! CHRISTMAS PRESENT! HINTS. i knw you guys are wonderful people.

2005-12-15T23:08:00.000+08:00

ICESKATING!! with xinyi on tuesday. the place as so crowded, has been a long time ever since i last ice skated , i still managed :D -3 cheers for rah!

job hunting with hannah; cousin . i was more of the timid one t ask for job vacancies. went t so many places. went for the interview at levis at potong pasir like damn far la. oh wells, meet kerny at orchard tt while cousin went off for a meeting.

had lots of fun tt day. OH YA, so damn sad la my everything is so small :/ my feet, i can't buy a havaianas sandal,the smallest is still too big. tried on the kids one AND i could fit it just tt my feet was a little bit more bigger -hurhur. have t buy a new slipper again INSTEAD. ass i can't find jeans which fits my butt, so damn sad la. thanks for the pants kerny (((: -hugs.

went back t yishun t watch KINGKONG. wasn't anymore spaces for us in twn. dwn t sakae t waste some time. ate ate ate ate, yummy yummy yummy. and king kong is so damn long la, 2 hours plus? our show start at bout 10.20 or smth ended at 1 plus, goodness. some person SLEPT during the show, guess he was t tired la. kerny kerny kerny.

went for this job thing at jurong west today. child care center, just a 3 days job. all i did was sit there see them perform/practice and earn money HAHA. walked round jurong point, things which caught my eye again as usual.

& now i'm eating the lollipop frm starbucks given by kerny (:

2005-12-13T00:25:00.000+08:00

it has been 7 days. and finally i get t meet tanjuikern, the boyfriend ((((:

wanted t draw out some money but the queue just had t be this -------------- long all the way out the door -.-. so dwn town collected his pay. he was wanted t buy a pair of shoes but ended up side tracking buying 2 shirts and a jacket :/ the limited edition puma jacket nice :D what a pity no more for the girls. RAHHHS why am i so small, i wanna get bigger ='[

SORRY TANJUIKERN :( i just realised that i'm always adding more trouble t my self instead of solving them. shoot me please. kerny i'm sorry :/ rah loves you.

2005-12-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

our food! -delicious

sakae sushi at sentosa!

after tanning (:

neoprint!

on the way home in the train

it's 5 days already :( and then now it's gonna be 7 days(a week) which is evenworst :((( . i hate the word WORK. then soom his gonna have chalet. shit all this stuff, bloody ass.

i want the subway cookie, this can make me happier. so soft and sweet, omg enough! didn't really ate today, just 2 chocolate doughnuts(small ones) and 3 hot dog buns(puny ones too). not really in the mood t eat. /:

i miss kerny, yes i do.

2005-12-10T11:51:00.000+08:00

thursday was rather a boring day at first. stuck home, so called cherlyn. talked a little while and decided t meet up since we're both so bored at hm while the guys are gonna have their fun. meet her in town went t many shops, tried on clothes. ohmyohmy, i love this mango skirt :/ so damn nice.

then subway at lido, first time trying subway -opps. we were finding a place t sit so we saw a table ,sat down. secs later ' rah! you skirt gt chilli sauce!' oh dammit. there goes my day, the chilli sauce attack. the worst part, it wasn't a small patch it was a big one. thanks t cher who cleaned my skirt for me(: anyways, i love the subway cookies. who wants t go have subway!!! kim came down t meet us. the search for another skirt, not many pleased me.but then yea had no choice la. stupid asshole who put the chilli on the chair.

one more thing. all the pants i tried on, nothing is ever my size -.- don't talk bout the length that can be alter. but even the size 24,the butt area is too baggy for me. i need to have a bigger butt now! but then , i guess i'll have no choice. (that's so sad ok)

thats us(: cherlyn kim, rah (butties for life)

2005-12-07T23:32:00.000+08:00

rah has no more fever (: but i still have a sore throat and flu.

sentosa tday with rene, mui and zhangyun. had sakae there for the first time, with tons of pictures (: the tide was very HIGH, 4 metres? that's very high compared t the usual tide in the day. oh yes and there's this oil spill, so no going into the water(: we had t use petrol t clean our feets t get the crude oil out. you must be wondering how we got the petrol, this beach petrol guy told us bout it. weird; using petrol t clean our feets haha. anyways, i'm too lazy t blog la :/ maybe rene will blog bout it.

i miss kerny kerny.

2005-12-05T21:08:00.000+08:00

rah is sick :/ bad bad bad bad sore throat and flu. which makes it so hard for me t slp in the night. and then POOF! i felt so weird when i was in the cab on the way t kerny's place. i knew that i was gonna have a fever. and sadly i did :((
i'm so bad at taking tablets i still prefer syrup HA opps secret revealed. i can take a long time just t swallow a tablet. my body was so hot, i think i could go fry an uncooked egg or something. felt so dead, but thanks t kerny who took care of me. (((: with the tablet, freezing towels and the fever wrap thing. (:

last taken temperature 38.5 mins ago. just hope everything will be fine. my throat hurts badly now, wearing a sweater. feeling much better now, compared t just nw.

oh yes, took a panadol just now. i bit it, so damn bitter for that very moment when i drank some water, it tasted sweet after my 16 years of life, t me water is smth that has no taste AT ALL. but not at they very moment(: it's tasted so SWEET! goodness, i'm really sick. :/

i miss everyone , all the friends. everyone i knw (: hope we can all meet up again.

no idea if i can go tanning with rene, i'll be even hotter under the sun

2005-12-04T14:08:00.000+08:00

watched saw Ii with kerny! since it was a NC16 show, while we were gonna enter, the women who tore our tickets was looking at me for seconds wondering if i was 16 or nt, sheesh. hello i'm 16 already(: months ago. the show's interesting, bloody but still nice la (: treasure life! that was what she show was about i think, ok nonsense.

had dinner at billy bombers, betty's roast chicken. the potato was super delicious! i guess that was the only thing i finished in my whole meal. the big fat drink (: sophia, orange, raspberry and more cant rmb all mixed. yummy!

i've been eating alot lately. i guess due t the boredness, all i do is eat and eat and eat. stuck at home so so bored. rather lazy t work too, everyone's working which leave me at home all the time!

2005-11-29T23:33:00.000+08:00

meet up with primary sch friends (:

monday
meet up with kim with her new red/orange aand violet hair at the side, cool! was suppose t go t bishan but decided t head dwn t twn. walk talk walk talk. had fun(: after so long. saw this new sandals, looks rather cool. no one has it yet, or ok no one i knw has it yet! so yea decided t buy it soon. the mango juice at orange julius rather thick, doesn't feel like juice at all. the photographs taken at orchard, very unique and interesting, managed t caught my eyes. then we say this merry christmas underwear at topshop with the word hohoho, had this idea of wearing it for x'mas t be totally in the x'mas mood LOL, rather refreshing. diff season diff underwears! dwn t taka's art shops. caught out eyes too, tons of things and idesa which went through out minds. (((((:

today
cherlyn's turn! was talking online about jobs and stuff. asked t go over t her place for a swim. had t take bus 965 and 136, i knw more of sengkang now :] wanted t have a swim and get a little of the sun. but the clouds were getting darker and darker. lucky for us it didn't rain the whole time. and her dog is SCARY i repeat SCARY. though it's big but it looks scary la. should go get a picture, i think i have one. felt as if it was gonna eat me up or smth.
took 100 over pictures while swimming (well most of the time taking pictures nt swiming!) we still failed one very 2 person shot. cos there was no one t help us took it either. went back t her house, saw they fierce dog again! it has been long since i last saw her family members and they still recognised me (: dinner at her place. romantic time tgt went t buy ice cream, sat for 2 t 3 mins , it rained! oh bummer. so had t change places the wind was super strong and it was way cold. talked and talked and talked. now i'm back home safely! feeling sleepy - dozing off soon.

need t run off. bye people!

2005-11-27T21:08:00.000+08:00

the big events are OVER ((((:
1. O levels
2. prom
3. 4 years of secondary sch life (ok i'm not happy about this)

i have lots t blog about but seriously i'm just to lazy!

i'll have pictures for you people =D

AND YOU BETTER TAG!.

meeting kim and cher . like finally ever since june. that was when we were all single, but the next meet up we're all no longer single :)) oh yes, date rah out too! she's dead bored at home :/ ( very very very)

kerny rocks (((: thanks for everything and the flowers . -love rah!

2005-11-20T00:09:00.000+08:00

just as i thought things were gonna be fine. well NO it's not the case. guess i'll never get that present that i'll want anymore. i've got t be strong, i'm not gonna cry. but how to? your the only one who makes me strong. so i guess someone buy me a toilet roll please.

the tears can't seem t stop.

2005-11-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

oh wells, o's is gonna be over in no time ((((((((: dwn with one paper left, science mcq and then wooohoo! but then damn results are gonna be next. it's worst then doing the paper actually, nerve wrecking. history was lucky for me, studied chapter 9 only. and guess what! it came out! unlike socialstudies, total bummer.

foot's aching. went t town with kerny kerny after so long. missing out on many stuff. prom alert! can't decide on what i need. that roxy shorts i wanted, ahh sad la someone else has it -grrrr. saw this 100 bucks foot wear, stunning! am sick of my havaianas slipper, so old already since last august i think :/ stinky. the kids sandals looks nice, but KIDS LA! oh wells. i have a crooked toe yes :/

daddy came home with a lumix fx8 digital camera ytd! -rejoices! :D silver in colour, i prefer the colured ones though!

i need sleep!

2005-11-17T20:46:00.000+08:00

my finger hurts , my stomach hurts. worst of all my heart hurts like mad. having history paper tmr, i have no mood t study. i'm feeling so dwn way way dwn.

seems t me you might be going. will i have my christmas present for the year? the year hasn't been a gd one. i hope this christmas will brighten up things. i don't feel secured at all. i'm afriad very. i need t talk, i want t talk t you. but i'm just afraid i'll make things worst and loose you.

2005-11-15T11:04:00.000+08:00

that's nth i look forward to now, nothing at all. not the end of o's, not the holidays , not even prom. just you. but i guess it's gonna be over soon.

what more can i do.

2005-11-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

i guess it's time for me t do some soul searching. time t reflect and all. i need t get that bad portion out of me, it's a big one. 2005 hasn't been a great year, one of the worst so far. there's no longer the little innocent girl. i have no idea what's with me. i need help, i need God.

i hope things can get better. it doesn't seem so with me around. always being the bad or evil one, destroying everything that gets in my path. it's time t shut up, if it's possible it's gonna be hard.

God, i need you (:

SORRY. SORRY t everyone out there, though like what most people say. what's the point of saying sorry when things have already been done. t forgive and forget, not everyone can do it.

tag replies -

MIN ; you not the mad one! not t worry! i envy you man, here we are suffering :/ i wanan enjoy! enjoy more nw! next yr is gonna be torture!
KIRSTIE ; i haven't seen you for a super duper long time! hows everything? your no longer in Covenant right?
XINYI ; you have been sitting infront of me like the whole year? in class, your register no. is ahead of me your 7 i'm 8, during exams, during o levels! maybe your just meant t be near me! :/ anyways all the best! no more sillyness in exams please!
. (dot) ; hello dot(: whoever you are! who are you who are you.

i will never be the same again - hillsongs

I will never be the same again,
I can never return, I've closed the door.
I will walk the path, I'll run the race
And I will never be the same again.

I will never be the same again,
I can never return, I've closed the door.
I will walk the path, I'll run the race
And I will never be the same again.

Fall like fire, soak like rain,
Flow like mighty waters, again and again.
Sweep away the darkness, burn away the chaff,
And let the flame burn to glorify Your name.

There are higher heights, there are deeper seas,
Whatever you need to do, Lord do in me.
The Glory of God fills my life,
And I will never be the same again.

Fall like fire, soak like rain,
Flow like mighty waters, again and again.
Sweep aways the darkness, burn away the chaff
And let a flame burn to glorify Your name.

Fall like fire, soak like rain,
Flow like mighty waters, again and again.
Sweep away the darkness, burn away the chaff,
And let a flame burn to glorify Your name.

I will never be the same again,
I can never return, I've closed the door.
I will walk the path, I will run the race
And I will never be the same again.
And I will never be the same again.
And I will never be the same again.

2005-11-11T17:21:00.000+08:00

A BREAK AT LAST. this whole week was madness. papers from monday to friday. loss tons of sleep. most PAPERS CLEARED!! but not all. dwn with accounts, history, puregoeg paper 1 , sci mcq.

papers this week were ok. except for the fact social studies was SO SUAY. pure geog was harder then usual. oh gosh did agriculture instead of settlement though i studied settlement :/ thank goodness i could remeber some agri. -phew! maths was easier then expected, but their might be some morderation la. oh shitt

feeling so dead tired now. afriad of accounts and history next weekk. need t catch up on some slp.

some mad person tagging me.
AUDREY - how unlucky can we just get! so much of studying, wasted our time!
MIN - oh yes at last! how's your holidays?

2005-11-08T02:35:00.000+08:00

it's NOVEMBER! which is like so bad. o level's are here and i'm still blogging away!

tday's paper maths 1 and ss. maths was fine(: BUT NOT SS. what i studied didnt came out how unlucky! anyways it's over(:

happy birthday tan juikern , your finally an old man now. like at last! stop being childish larh you. stupid willy wonka. though it's the start of exams on your birthday! (suay larh you) celebrate after o's larh!

recap chem!
extraction of iron.

2005-10-14T12:54:00.000+08:00

howdy!

it been long since i last blogged. thought of closing it down. shall see about that. either i'm to lazy t blog, there's nth t blog about, i have to study too! or i doubt my blog is read by people too. so i guess there's no point having one. thought of getting a personal diary, t jot dwn some personal stuff and feelings.

PRELIMS! well, wasn't as bad as i expected it t be for me. 1 A, 2Cs and 3Bs :/ stupid Cs (sci and humans) pulled me dwn. at first i had 12 points for 4 subsjects, seems rather ok. but with the Cs oh bummer. almost made it t 3 months, short of 3 points i think. -grrrr had A2 for my cca!! wheee thanks t the 2 years of syf which saved my life, pon quite alot of band during sec 3. i thank God for this (:

sch has been BORING. 3 lessons everyday ,havent been going for quite a few lessons. wouldn't be as helpful, i guess we'll just talk away bout prom or whatever that's recent. studied macromolecules! i so dislike oxidation and reduction. i have t like think, after thinking my brains feels so haywired!

oh wells, time t con't on some other chapter for now (:

2005-10-04T22:06:00.000+08:00

GAHH HAVE BEEN TOO LAZY T BLOG!

HAPPY BELATED TO ONN!
headed dwn t twn with onn t celebrate his bday. had lots of fun, has been a long time since i went there. hope t have more fun again. (: you're legal now! go drink till your drunk!

on friday went t expo for some sale with tracy,pt, mui and dj. hoping that there was a MEGA sale but it turned out more t be like some 'mega' sale instead. super pathetic so we headed dwn t bugis walked around. talking bout prom, seems rather busy if we had t prepare for prom, bummer. im t lazy t prepare.

gotten back results. eh good or bad i choose bad.

i'm t lazy t blog. lazy lazy lazy.

2005-09-28T15:48:00.000+08:00

i gave her 12 roses, 11 were real and 1 was fake, i said i will love her until the last one dies. (gt it frm pt) one meaning yet it becomes complicated.

no school day for rah today (: wasn't a very pleasant day tday. woke up in the morning, my lips were still dry and painful. i'm dehydrated, need t replenish tons of water in me. next was super tired with only 4 hours of slp. and when i went on t bathe, there was smth wrong with the water, the amount of water was only 1/3 frm the usual amount of the shower -bummer. decided t skip chi and was planning t go t sch later. but as usual i decide t proclaim a no school day for myself! slept through :D

got back chi and phy. passed but unsatisfied with physics la! oh wells study harder.

2005-09-28T01:10:00.000+08:00

recap(:

monday
no school! but there was still chi oral, at yishun sec. wasn't in the mood for oral, was a really boring day. dwn t yishun sec (newly renovated), it's nice but everywhere i go i practically see billabong bags here, billabong bags there. like its the sch brand or something and the designs are all the same! -goodness. saw some friends there, stephen(best pri sch pal :D) and ben, (the guy next door). well, the passage and conversation was fine, wasn't nervous at all i guess it's because it's CHINESE! which doesn't matter much t me. and with this chi oral i've realised it's has been months since i last spoke chinese. it's getting frm bad t worst, no chi for me pelase.

today((:
i'm clean, bathed (: say good bye t thee steamboat smell. had a 2a gathering at marina steamboat. unexpectedly many came about 20. the usuals and unusuals. reached at bout 5 plus we had dinner till bout 8. mostly chatting & taking pictures. had loads of fnu and laughter :D worth while going. played pool!! it's been long since i last played, i'm SIXTEEN!! played played played. we'll all home now planning t skip sch! but i just can't wait t get my papers back!!

talked bout our prom night was in plan for it, the surprises. sheesh- it's gonna be kept a secret (: -zips up mouth. all the excitement within me now.

ok i better go sleep! in need of truckloads of slp. woke up so tired in the morning. NO NAP TDAY!! doubt i'll survive tmr.

can't wait for shopping in thursday! and SENTOSA!! oh yea :D i'm anticipating.

2005-09-27T11:49:00.000+08:00

prelims are officially over! (but there's still o's t come sadly.)

its kinda funny, they told us when our o levels are released raftly end of feb or early march. but the thing is, we haven even sit for our papers! anyways, there's PROM! lucky it's nt some weird event or place.

new time table for sch. max 3 subs a day, it's quite long though, it's a good thing they gave us 2 breaks. kinda feels like some holiday thing going on :/

got t rest nw. though i have been resting lol. opps

2005-09-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

oh yea all down one to go. but there's still o's!! having some kind of enjoying mood already -opps. can't wait t get the results.

haven't had enough sleep though there was 2 days of holiday! but it has t be occupied with books still. accounts mcq was fine, luckily. geog today didn't studied agri for once. has bout 6 hours to study 12 chapts the day before, rushed like a mad ass. lucky the paper was fine, didn't had enough time though hands was also aching , damn.

next paper sci mcq! rather lazy t study :/

i wanna go tanning!! anyone? guess not larh. everyone mus be mugging their asses off.

2005-09-19T20:58:00.001+08:00

i totally screwd history. studied chapters 9 and 10, luckily 9 came out. BUT i didn't realise the ques was chapt 9, i though it was chapt 2 another part of china. so i did the question on world war 1 which i didn't studied at all. had t write dwn whatever that comes t my mind. total bummer, this is plain sillyness. -AHH oh wells, maths was alright i thought it would be a killer paper, but luckily it wasn't.

dwn t tracy's house after sch to visit the hamsters ; bacon and chesse (: had lunch there. yada-ing away, watched some tv. planning t have some over night study at nat's place, hope things turn out well! strolled all the way home frm tracy's place, a peaceful walk i shall say.

talked t min recently bout those girlfriends (bitchy ones). we finally exchanged numbers after so long, kinda weird.

wake up by hilary is nice, go hear it if you guys have the time (:

no sch for tmr & weds! -wheee but i still have t continue mugging larh. :/

2005-09-15T14:57:00.000+08:00

a week is alomst over! most of the major papers cleared. hmm on the whole i think it's ok, i think larh. the results may not be ok. maths, accounts i thought it'd killed me. but it was easier then i expected. geog mcq not very gd :/ i feel blessed for my social studies. out of so many chapts i studied only two and both came out! was so damn happy larh. :D

prac ytd(first shift) was hmm. one of the last t finish the physics part, was panicking thinking tt i wouldn't be able t finish it. but i guess it was ok. chem was abit scary my colour was orange while the others were reddish brwn :/ anyway it's over larh. had t be quarantine, super lame. had t stay till 1.30 was practically talking instead of studying ss. everyone was oh venice will come out, because the teachers nv test b4. it's prelims here not class test or mid yr please. in the end venice didn't came out. lucky enough t nt listen t those humans.

sciences tmr chem and physics. those people are out there t kill us - damn.

new link wongtongonn

2005-09-10T12:45:00.000+08:00

a week is almost over. next to come major PRELIMS. i'm so dead, so so dead.

for the week, back to sch for the eng prog and maths lesssons. headed dwn t bukit panjang with tracy,nat,pt and mui. they went crazy bout the hamsters there and so decided to bought a pair. one female one male, names are bacon and chesse. (reminds me of food!) got my muji stationary at last! and earrings.

dwn t changi for some overnight study :/ came back with eyes closed. the bk hashbrowns soo crunchy. -slurps

so damn tired now. anyways, time for lunch chaos(:

2005-09-04T19:11:00.000+08:00

a major paper is over -phew. it was fine i guess, but we've got t wait till our results are here.
more killer papers on the way :/

holidays! NOT. more like a mugging session. still have got t go t sch hurhur.
managed some of accounts, sucky. there's more t come.

2005-09-01T10:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR HO! JOANNA & MR TANG :D

prelim starts tmr. -faints both english papers.

had dodge ball on monday for pe. i think it's gonna be the most enjoyable pe lesson. then dwn for dental, gap finally filled up, no more pain -phew. dwn t tracy's place, had a bath there :/ haha did some painting for the tcr's day present and a card, truckloads of fun.

went for the night study on tues. so much commotion going on. managed t do some moles ques only.

2005-08-28T23:15:00.000+08:00

PRELIM'S ON FRIDAY! DIE DIE DIE.

doing some depreciation questions now in the tys (: one of the first few papers. i'm oh soooo dead. dwn t causeway ytd book an accounts bk, hope it's useful larh.

gotta be a mugger now, no longer a bummer.

having dental tmr!!! no idea when was my last dental. was quite a frequent patient during the primary school days :/ hope this go well, they betetr not pull my big teeth HAHA.

STUDY!! i need an accounts tutor!

thanks for coming all the way here just for a fillet burger! :D

2005-08-26T20:09:00.000+08:00

had pizza today frm mrs p. (: gave us chocolates in class too. scrumptious! followed by some photo taking session for our class page. hoe thigns goes out well. my donation card was pathetic only 2 bucks :/

oh wells,havent been going online recently. nothing much t do online either, no one t talk t, websites are soo boring.

all i can do now is study study study. i hope i can do well for prelims, but at this rate. things seem so impossible.

ahh i miss everyone.

2005-08-23T22:57:00.000+08:00

played soccer for pe ytd, much more fun then the same old captain's ball.
got back our class photo's today, the last picture was kinda screwed.
had all our signatures on thee back of the photo, last year.
i'll miss 3/4 benevolent.

teacher's now, keep giving us revisions papers, that's good. but they don't wanna mark it at all.so what's the point of giving it t us,when they don't mark and we won't knw where we went wrong?

i saw olinda tday at paragon! a little blue hair?
she smiled at me with her big smile on her face!
and then i was at an mrt station when a women in her 50's i think asked me directions in CHINESE! i was like erm, juikern pls ans her ques. and he had t tell her that i couldn't und eng when he could just ans her. super disgracing larh. so we decided t test my chi with a pri 3 assignment book, and sadly, i can't read larh :/ my chinese has really gone upside down.

books books books (:

2005-08-19T18:40:00.000+08:00

a week has passed.
-more work, more stress
-prelim tabletime is here
-new eng course.
-practicals
-tests
-got back our cca card :/

had dinner ytd at tracy's place again. tracy's bee hoon - yummy! watched superstar for the second time =X i didn't even knw the show existed till like a few weeks ago. it's obvious i don't watch chinese shows, or maybe i rarely watch the television these days.

so glad my studying mood is back! time t mug my ass off now. (:

2005-08-13T23:46:00.000+08:00

watched charlie and the chocolate factory with juikern :D not a bad show, there were squirrels biting on nuts! HAHA, reminds me of myself lol.

orals was hmm,alright? though one of the question was damn like chim larh. ' what was one sentence you said to your friend and you had regretted saying it t them'. i'm like wth i needa think larh. what a ques for oral. all in all, it's fine i guess.

pasta mania for dinner (: creamy chicken was kinda dry, not very delicious infact.

i'm so bored. bored

2005-08-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

oh gosh, i'm like so so sick now, and my english oral is like tomorrow? AHH! first i'm dwn with a sore throat and flu, next this sudden pain came attacking my tummy, and then i had diarrhea -.- oh please, tell me what's next?

oral oral oral, so damn freaked out. i hope i'll be fine by then. my very first o's exam, didn't had chi :/ oh yeah anyways, chi results i heard their gonna get it back tmr, all the best guys (: believe in yourself.

i'm not crazy ; i'm just a little unwell.

2005-08-10T14:28:00.000+08:00

Miss You More - bbmak

There are so many reasons that I find to run to you
Cos there's so little loving in my life, now I am wawy
And thinking about it I want things back how they used to be
There is no way round it, nothing good comes easily
So much between us and we both know that it's wrong
So I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong

[Chorus]
So here I am all by myself thinking of you nobody else
There is a feeling inside and as hard as I try it just won't go away
Are you finding it hard it all on your own
Having to face each night alone
Knowing that you are the one with the love that I need
And I miss you more each day

So many feelings emotions running away with me
Cos it's you that I believe in and I love this one so deep
So much between us and we both know that it's wrong
Now I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong
Back where I belong

[Chorus]

So I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong
Back where I belong

[Chorus to fade]

well i guess it's just for you.

2005-08-10T10:57:00.000+08:00

firstly thanks for all the birthday greetings, presents and surprises (:

damn unfortunate larh, was kinda down on luck on monday -grrr. had this super bad sore throat and flu when i woke up, which was way torturing. lunch at pasta, couldn't really eat, i think i had gastric. had this surprise frm the 2a peeps, a cake but no appetite t eat larh was too full :/ sorry guys.

oh wells, some things just can't be forgetten. after so long and so much together you tell me it's totally over just because of someone else. it's not like we can't work things out or we don't fit each other, we don't quarrel much either it's nt like we always quarrel . we were always so happy tgt for such a long time but since you decided t leave everything which was going on well, good bye my love, there's nth more i can say or do.

you make me wanna surrender my soul
even if i want to i'm no longer able t.

2005-08-08T00:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME(:
oh gosh i'm officially 16 now, old old old
sweet sixteen.

met up with onn just nw. dinner at swensens, thanks for the treat and the watch(: appreciate it alot.

thanks for all the birthday greetings (: love you guys.

hope it will be a blast later,praying that i'll nt cry or whatever. it's finally 88, ahhh! memories are all starting t come back. shall nt be sad, try my best larh. chaos!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY T MT TOO! -hugs

2005-08-06T21:49:00.000+08:00

do you think i'm alright after all this? you'll stay single even if you really break off with her. so now whose the one ending everything? yes i broke off with you. though i'm willing t come back, now whose the one nt willing t mend things up again.

yes wad a waste, then you come telling me to go t someone else. wouldn't tt be a waste.

after loving you for so long, you tell me this to find someone else, oh wells.

sheesh, paradoxical.

all's fair in love and war.

i need a car crash now. t forget all those memories, it's killing me and 8 aug is approaching, two years. what a birthday it will be.

2005-08-06T18:18:00.000+08:00

went t kk hospital yesterday,whole family went thete. bro's dwn with high fever since last sat almost a week or so yet things aren't getting better. 1 wek w/o sch, damn good can, i wish i had a day at least. so many kids there were all crying away. one girl even told her dad this' i don't want injection,mummy doesn't love me anymore -cries' LOL damn cute larh.

have been slacking alot lately can't seem t find the studying mood at all. no idea why :/

the day which we have been waiting for will be arriving soon. though there wouldn't be a chance for us t celebrate this occasion anymore. oh wells, what can i do, just rmb what it was like on that sunday 1 year ago.

2005-08-04T01:28:00.000+08:00

damn chem practicals. i always break stuff, butter fingers. what's worst i got a cut -.- shitty.

2005-07-31T22:57:00.000+08:00

i'm happy (: VERY.

twned with tracy ytd. like finally can, we've nv been t twn tgt after so long. my darling(: had loads of fun. so many stuff that caught our eyes. more shopping sesisons t come (: dwn t esplanade took loads of pictures. when we were bout t go home, there wasn't any train -.- so we waited for the bus and realise that there wasn't any left. SHEESH!

jogging yday with sinhui! no idea when was the last time since i jogged. managed t jog 5 rounds under thee scorching sun! LOL the toilet so damn empty larh. bathed then went t mug. took pictures haha stupid i didn't bully you ok lee sin hui!

ok gtg go mug already behind time!

2005-07-30T14:21:00.000+08:00

woke up not long ago(: and i'm STILL TIRED. haven't been having naps recently no chance to either.

had dinner at tracy's place on thurs. went t ntuc fairprice for our grocery shopping. then it was time for the cooks t be at work! well the main cook was tracy, i was one too! we had so many dished 5 dishes 1 soup. that's alot for 4 people ok, and so we couldn't finish it larh. FUN FUN FUN((: somehow like a family gathering. -whee.

mugged at changi ytd with juikern. the trip there was LONG. well ok it wasn't we took a bus for half an hour, but because our stomachs we sooo soo hungry, it's felt like hours. felt so weak, my stomach kept complaning. did maths, those brain bombarding questions. thinking like no body's business. watched stealth at cine, a VERY VERY nice show.those aeroplanes and all, damn nice can. it's definitely worth your 9.50 (: cabbed home, so many cabs which we could choose frm haha, like we own that place or smth. dropped dead when i reach hm at 1. couldn't wait t slp haha.

guess it's gonna be home tday, cousin eunice's coming later t act at my house? haha weird. anyways,time t mug, cya (:

2005-07-26T23:20:00.000+08:00

it was raining cats and dogs in the morning larh. had a very hard time hailing for a cab in the rain. luckily, after so long there was an empty cab.

headed dwn t sengkang with jk. went t meet cherlyn, which the other went t do his braces stuff. we were hearing the mp3 on the bus, i didn't realise that i was talking so loud =X practically the bus was just filled with my voice haha -gosh. anyways,tried this new chicken blah blah with pineapple at delifrance, hmm not bad larh. soo, both of them became friends thanks to me! haha x) oh instead of studying with cherlyn, all 3 of us decided t headed dwn t twn after finishing his appointment. no mood t study at all larh!

during the whole journey i went crazy bout green, i was like green here green there, till they were like 'enough of green please!' haha opps i don't knw why green seems t be attracting me since a long time ago. it's a nice colour ok!

2 kind souls deicided t accompany cherlyn back t hougang! oh when we were on our way back at orchard's mrt station, the lights all suddenly went off, got a huge shock. the place was oh so dark, freaky. so all the way back t sengkang then took 965 back t yishun (: dine in at ljs for dinner, been visiting ljs often, getting fat already man.

so yeah here i am now. i feel so dwn no idea why -argh! didn't study tday larh! falling asleep any moment. i miss my bed cya ((:

2005-07-25T15:20:00.000+08:00

woo woo! it's a new week, starting afresh (: shall always forget bout the unhappy start on the start of every new week. books are all i need now, i think my eye will get worst soon not or later -sheesh.

celebrated grandma's birthday on sat((: met up with all the relatives and cousins. thanks t me cousin for insulting me all day long! hahas anyways, could finally see them, missed them much. so much yummy food, which resulted t a big tummy of mine. the curry,lontong,prawns, chicken wings! haha and yes of cause the CAKE! it was more like a feast for me =X

TIMETABLE
mon- accounts, history
tues- sciences
wed- maths
thurs- puregeog,
fri- eng,sciences
sat- BREAK FREE!
sun- social studies

meeting cherlyn tmr, can't wait (:

2005-07-22T22:21:00.000+08:00

it's confirmed, i'll die without a nap of insufficient slp at least 8 hours. didn't had my nap ytd,i practically slept while doing my work at bout 11. that's early for me ha.

twned ytd with juikern, it's been a long time sicne i've last stepped into town. so many stuff which tempts me, i just can't stop counting x) yet t change the watch strap, deciding on getting a new one anyways, shall be a swatch supporter (: we were talking bout gays and all (no offence t gays out there) i couldn't stop laughing =X it was super super funny, and MEAN at tht esame time. but oh wells, i had my fun(: saw this mambo bag which i craved for ever since last year, by the time i wanted it -GONE. too late larh, uhh! sad man.

ss sbq course is over! ok well i actually don't mind staying back for more sessions though it ends at like 5.30? cause we have free lollipops! haha ok it's not bout the lollipops, the course does help me(: better understanding of source base ques now, i hope i'll no longer fail my sbq larh. she tested me, and said i was fine -goodies. scored 5/6 for the ques we did on the first day. acheivement can! wheee to bad i cant go for the course again on mon. no idea why -sheesh

still feeling so tired though i like just woken up? my brain's failing on me.

2005-07-19T20:29:00.000+08:00

My life is ~~brilliant~~.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,'
Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.

But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

2005-07-19T00:48:00.000+08:00

now i know how much i mean to you
what i am to you.

2005-07-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

i feel so sleepy now, it seems that i'll die without a day's nap or at least a long sleep a minimum or 10 hours? totally a sleeper now.

met up with kim t mug ytd. played with her new pda. so damn cool larh going online using the pda, can shoo the computer away already lol.downloaded so many songs ytd, full blast. dl-ing song every sec.

sch tday. shitty larh! whole day we only had maths lesson. chem, ss, pure geog, pe tcrs didn't come tday, all the mc kings and queens. pe was much more fun tday, had whole of 4b playing captains ball tgt. played played played, much more fun then normal pe lessons. i think one of the best ever since months. library during pure geog, disccusing bout what courses we're gonna take after o's. i just realised i have no idea at all larh x) -i'm dead better start thinking.

it's now my turn t have the sbq course, mon/wed/fri up t 5.30 in sch. -sheesh was freezing inside just now and the weather was like so cold already. course was still alright, didnt' felt tired (gd sign).

feeling asleep any moment. eyes are getting weaker. chaos everyone, trigo test tmr. conquer!

2005-07-17T01:25:00.000+08:00

career day, wasn't as boring as expected. took many pamplets lol. so keen on going CJ! sounds so interesting larh, but then aiya i can start dreaming , no chance sadly. nvm shall work hard and score well first (:

i had this superduper long nap ytd larhs. started from 6pm -10 plus. then continued at 11- 2, then 3 -11.30 this sat morning. total about 15 hours of slp?without food somemore! LOL and i still don't feel awake larh. don't knw wad has gotten into me, madness. slping is so nice (:

dwn t changi in the late afternoon t meet tjk t mug. managed t finish our pierce paper 2, satisfied. saw audrey there(: some blur king, cancelled the ans, so obviously he couldn't find the ans -.- had our laughs, really stupid ones. esp the maths equation haha. got so enthu bout chem, acids, bases and salts all of a sudden.

don't force me to do stuff. if i don't feel like it there's no point of me doing it, i'll do it so unwillingly without a mood at all. things hasn't been going well for me since ages ago. all i wish for now is peace, not rantings. i haven been my real self, i guessed i've change, it's hard t be like last time, his gone, so many things destroyed. i admit tt i've changed, for the worst. i don't feel very good bout myself either. i wanna change it's hard for now, feeling so depreived of everything. no sense of acheievments at all.

you choose t leave me forever. i see no light shining into my life now.

2005-07-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

wednesday
had practical tday after sch, broke smth in the chem lab larhs -.- had to pay a dollar, luckily it's a dollar phew scare me man. didn't take a nap! surprsingly, but was feeling damn tired larh. had t mug for chem test.

today
double period day. managed t miss ss, anyways mr tham didn't come. lucky man -phew didn't do his sbq :/ got challenged by mr ho to do some physics ques, conquered! (: had class photo taking!! haha so damn fun larh tracy brought her cam and all. started taking and taking. i guess our class photo will be much nicer this year ((: no a/cs today!, ended at 1.45 wooo dwn t np with tracy and rene babe along with aud. had lunch thanks to tracy for the roti boy (: i love you girl! rene too ((:

ahh. you choose to leave me now. i wanted t get things back tgt again. but i'll never have the chance to anymore. just in 3 months, you decided to leave me forever.i don't know what am i to do now, losing someone so impt t me for more then 2 years already? knowing each other for so long, how it is possible t let you go. since you don't want me anymore, i'm drenched of words. so long as your happy, i'll accept whatever pain i have to bear with just for you.

2005-07-12T15:41:00.000+08:00

bowling ytd with mr wto, played 4 games. had lots of 0's for the first game =X managed better larter on. score of 126. the last time i played was? sec 1? whew- way long ago. didn't really studied for accounts test. instead i slept through till 8.

i have been sleeping alot recently. though i take naps, i still sleep much earlier in the night then usual x) hibernation time.ahh! haven been eating as much as i did recently either.

tday's boring accts test 4 periods, slping away again haha. no eng! lessons tday were kinds slacky. had this NE quiz after sch. very lame larh :/

and if you haven heard the song the stupid things- jesse mccartney. go hear! it's damn nice. i really like the lyrics, meaningful to me (:

and all the stupid things i do have absolutely no reflection on how i feel about you.

2005-07-10T13:35:00.000+08:00

friday
youth celebration? my foot. more like youth suffering celebration. a celebration where lessons are still held and all, -sheesh. met cherlyn after sch t study,but yea expected we didn't. we talked the whole time, shopping around. we spend a very long time at life bookshop. the books and the songs are awesome, planning t get bks t read, but with all tt i need t study. i doubt i'll have the time t read too.

sat
sentosa with 2 gays :/ breakfast at ljs, the hashbrown is nice! so we tanned, talked. they kept singing non-stop remix of duno hw many songs. it wasn't just at the beach they kept singing,practically everywhere larh haha. saw buttie(kim) there! time for mahjhong at tracy's house. i miss that babe (: played for awhile, i feel so funny haha everyone was like so pro larh, the only beginner there LOL. had late dinner with jk at delifrance, if nt i wouldn't eat like the whole day? ahha.

for today. slacking aaway might get some slp feeling tired!

2005-07-06T18:24:00.000+08:00

yesterday
met onn (((: for dinner, ban mian just like last time. saw don there joined us. dwn t safra for their bowling sensation haha, onn's crazy bout bowling. didn't play, both of them played. enjoyed my stay. reached home bout 10 plus, shagged lazy t study for maths quiz with the stupid maths booklet.

pure geog tday, my eyes couldn't open larh. i have never ever felt a single bit sleepy gor geog ever since the last few lesson. is it the tcr or me? no idea. anyways, the maths quiz was ok! (: waited for aud n pt t finish their mt oral. dwn to 900 plus, had laksa! it's been a long time since i had laksa *yummy dwn t the pet shop. wha there's this dog damn big larh. i think if he stand, he would be so much taller then me. walked around np,all of us having the shopping mood haha. cannot wait t shop, it's been 178376256 years haha.

ok larh, can't go online tt often already. dad's nagging SHEESH! i'm gonna suffer with my books. ADIOS

2005-07-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

youth day! holiday for us.i really don't have the mood t study today lol, i just wanna enjoy!

met kim for lunch ljs again. haha her favourite larh. then saw onn,don and ivy, they went t ljs too. ((: happy larh walked around in np. bought some sticker stuff haha for fun larh. we were super bored can. saw quite alot of people tday. we were walking frm 900 plus t gv. kept hearing the song simple plan -untitled. AHHH so nice can the lyrics are like just what's happening now. sighhh

sch tmr. no mood for sch! sad sad sad. i just have the holiday mood suddenly, my history book has been infront of me, i haven read a single sentence of it. pathetic larh! gotta go pack up.

ADIOS.
i miss you so much, all i want now is you to come back and be by my side always.

2005-07-04T20:17:00.000+08:00

simple plan - untitled

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

2005-07-03T16:30:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling lost, lonely. no where to go,no one to talk to. i could only hide myself at home. i'm devastated, losing a loved one, whom i loved so much, which i have never felt it for anyone except him before. the memories are too happy, t the extend that when i think of it, it hurts so much and i mean so much. the tap of tears never seems to stop flowing. most of the happiest moments i had during my 15 years of life were all with you.so how is it possible to forget you? i have to, but i don't want too.

life's so dull now. it's has only colors of black ~~and white~~. filled with darkness, i see no light coming in. no where to go, no one to go with. nothing seems fulfilling,the only one thing for me to fulfill now is my studies. the thing i wanna fulfill is for us t be tgt, but the other's reluctant. so i guess it will never be fulfilled.

i just realise that the circle of friends i have seems to get smaller. no idea why, i guess it's me. i've been a problem to many,i just wish that everything will be alright and things can go back to normal again. so bored, when i need a soul to talk to, theres' no one there, everyone's busy doing their stuff. But i'm glad there will always be someone for me, God.

it's time to change. the old me has dissapeared, i've got to find it back. i've not been spending as much time with God anymore, it's time now.

2005-07-01T20:33:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DON!
haha fancy staying at home on your bdae.he said it's had been his tradition, lol nonsense. anyways, thanks for the book (:

mugged for history till 4am; madness. -phew luckily the test was still alright. ever since sch reopened, they hasn't been a day that we don't recieve homeworks at all. and it's like almost every sub larh. not 1 or 2 ques but MANY! have been studying everyday man,it's the beginning only.

haven seen christina for this whole week yet, poor girl she's having her chicken pox. i miss chris, can't wait t see her soon(: get well! finally caught it with mummy(patricia),haven talked t her for a superduper long time. and we realised our relationship lasted the longest, 4 years coming. LOL mum-daugh relationship *aww -love!

after mt that day,they were all talking bout horoscopes and stuff. i'm a leo,the things were like so fits me larh. gd and bad i shall say lol. my so called future job entertainer,actor, singer. LOL the entertainer part is so true! can't believe it.

anyways,i suddenly miss band so much larh. was getting out of sch tday, when mr tay drive in and almost bang me! he changed he car t maroon, got $ larh. heard some band songs awhile ago ascentium, makes me mis band so much. (it doesn't sound like me at all.) i wonder if i still can play x)

ok time t go continue doing my maths. i blogged so much tday SHEESH, anyway i talk alot larh so yea (: CHAOS

2005-06-28T19:45:00.000+08:00

woke up not long ago. my nap was LONG. slept at 3 woke up at 7.30. hmm, 4 and a half hours. that's a long nap x) had been slping late this few days. did my maths till 1 ytd, sheesh. still ain't use t the sch timings.

head's kinda pain. headache? eh seriously, i have no idea what's a headache like. i guess it a headache then. feeling kinda hot too, hope i'm gonna be well soon. or i won't be able to study larh!

chaos! 3hours 3hours 3hours ;
i'm gonna do it, well i have to (:

2005-06-27T19:34:00.000+08:00

TIME TO HIT AND RUN WITH OUR BOOKS.
gotta mug everyday - my aim. a minimum of 3 hours? yeap, gotta go plan things out already. -whee prelims are like less then 2 months ahead? SO FAST CAN. did some maths just now, still doing(: wanted t watch the chi show at 7. decided not too got to ren!

sch tday; new fairygod mother and security guard. stomach was super pain after recess, i felt like i was dying :/ so hard t breathe & i felt like vomiting. scary can! was dead during maths, couldn't open my eyes, headed to the ladies, need t wake myself up FRESHNESS ((:
on the way home, buttie called t meet her up for lunch at ljs. i noticed she love it and i was so right! ljs was filled with uniforms larh -.- oh! saw audrey :D (kindergarden pal) slacked around with kim.

slping early tonight! or i'll slp in class for sure tmr, that's bad.
bye fellow earthlings!
time t go conquer maths(((:

2005-06-25T17:09:00.000+08:00

your gone.

i don't think you will read my blog, anyways..

after being so long together, doing stuff together. i broke up with you, you told me to give a chance t our relationship to salvage it. though i did, i guess it's too late. 2 months later you found someone else, i was just too late. though now, i'm willing for us to be tgt again. you have someone else, a chance will not be given to us. we will never knw, maybe if we were tgt we could last much longer this time realising our mistakes. however, a chance wasn't given, we'll nv knw if we really could last and all. you said if we couldn't meet and all, how am i suppose t develop my feelings for you. likewise, we don't meet now, obviously your feelings will nt develop for me, but for her as you see her everyday. i feel that we could last if the chance was given. anyways,

i hope you guys will be happy tgt then.

2005-06-24T11:36:00.000+08:00

had been sleeping quite alot today, i still can study larh sighs.

i don't knw if i should give up, or should i not. i don't want to, but at this stage, the both of you are already so close. it's quite obvious that your gonna be gone, forever. i will really miss those days, all the fun we had together, our adventures. i doubt i'm gonna have as much fun again, especially with you.in order to forget this memories, i will need a car crash so that all the memories can be gone. anyways, i'll still be there for you, always.

damn suay larh, o's are nearing. and the worst thing is i can't find the mood to study! i wanna enjoy enjoy enjoy t release the sorrows within me. AHH! -screams

meeting rene tmr t study! 7.30 bk.

2005-06-23T12:27:00.000+08:00

changed the skin (: quite simple though. i actually liked the super colourful one i had tt time, but life isn't as colourful now, it's more plain and simple. the white one was too dull. it has t fit me, haha ok nonsense.

schools reopening in days. and i haven touched my books! i'm in such a big trouble larh can. i wanted t study, but i didn't have the mood t larh. -sighs.

2005-06-22T00:36:00.000+08:00

met kimmy tday, for lunch at ljs(: i found out her secret haha aww, i'm honoured larh. anyways, it was during primary sch. remembered the fun times, staying over and all! i'm always free, call me out or anything yeah.

just came back from 2a's BBQ gathering! all thanks t tracy who oragnised it (: had loads of fun, all 8 girls were present, missed those times. roller bladed with rene, i still can larh! damn happy haha after so long i still managed. though i fell on my butt on the slope =X took pics and all. too much t be mentioned .haha shall relax for now.

i still love you ((:

2005-06-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

happy birthday kim (:

finally met up with kim and cherlyn after so many donkey years (((: miss them so much, everyone's so diff now. but we're all with love probs hahas. we just can't stop talking. so much t talk about after 4 years. we finally took a photo tgt after so long. slacked at graffiti cafe.

met this pervert in the train, damn funny. this guy keep looking at us. kim's fren was so irritated they walked away saying 'oh my god , there's a pervert' haha damn funny. he really looked like one =X kim tell us who that girl is larh! =p

waiting.

2005-06-18T22:50:00.000+08:00

i'm living in fear every moment.
i can only have faith and patience.
to just wait for you t come back.
i hope you'll be back.

i love you.

2005-06-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

"U Make Me Wanna"

You know you make me wanna.
You know you make me wanna.
To start it off I know you know me
To come to think of it, it was only last week.
That I had a dream about us, oh.
That's why I am here, I'm writing this song.
To tell the truth you know I have been hurting all along,
Someway let me know, you want me girl.

Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor man and you're the queen.
Oh baby, you're the only thing that I really need.
Baby that's why:

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love,
you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

Well I know that these feelings won't end no, no.
They'll just get stronger if I see you again.
Baby I'm tired of being friends.
I wanna know if you feel the same
And could you tell me do you feel my pain?
Don't leave me in doubt.

Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor man and you're the queen.
Oh baby, you're the only thing that I really need.
And baby that's why:

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love,
you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

I'll take you home real quick
And sit you down on the couch
Pour some Dom Perignon and hit the lights out.
Baby we can make sweet love.
Then we'll take it nice and slow.
I'm gonna touch you like you've never know before
We're gonna make love all night.

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love,
you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

our favourite song-
sighs

2005-06-15T22:21:00.000+08:00

onn's gone forever. :(((
i made him suffer for 2 months.
i'm willing t come back now.
but i'll never be forgiven i guess,sigh
i just want this last chance, but i doubt there will be.
things change,
i hope he'll be better with her.

to onn: i'll never forget you,all the memories we had for so long. the times we went out and all,we did everything together. i make a mistake a very big and stupid now. i regret it, but no point anymore i guess.it's too late, i'm willing t do anything now. all i ask for is one last chance. my doors will always be open t you. though we're gonna be best friends, it's hard t accept it. you were mine all along. i still want you and i'll be waiting.
just this last chance.

sigh, what can i do. nth i guess.

2005-06-14T20:47:00.000+08:00

haven ate or drank a single stuff the whole day tday
the last meal i had was my lunch since ytd 4 plus
no appetite t eat at all.
i still dun feel hungry, sigh.

i really wish things will go back t normal.
really really really.

2005-06-14T09:51:00.000+08:00

it's too late.it's too late.it's too late
couldn't slp. slept at 2 woke up at 6.
ahhhh, i only have one wish now.
just one very wish,nothing else.
as i thought things were starting t get well
it became worst,smth i nv expected.
i can't accept it, it's too pain.
your gone in a flash.

how how how how.
i made a mistake, no idea if i'll get a chance t amend it back.
i wish i could.
i din knw it could be gone, so fast
jsut as i was beginning t acpt it.
i though everything was getting on well

i'm afraid verry.

you make me wanna and the favourite blue song.

2005-06-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

SIGH SIGH SIGH :((

2005-06-12T20:48:00.000+08:00

dine out with pt ytd for dinner. her sister joined us (: saw ben at ljs.

home all day. boring boring boring.

not really in the mood for a camp. sighh

2005-06-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

oral wasn't good!by miss ling. had to wait so so long. heard that the last person ended at 6? my goodness, so late larh can.

bk-ed with jk, did 2004 maths prelim paper. managed t do lots; satisfying :D damn happy to solve the questions, brain was in the maths mode ytd. solve those i never thought i could!

last day of sch during the hols today! wheeee dad's not working,whole family is home. feels really good. watched the gospel of john at home, very very good show. family headed out for dinner, didn't tag-along, was sleeping away. so i'm home alone w/o food. met jk for dinner, watched madagascar, supposed t watch mrs/mr smith though. madagascar wasn't that nice la boo-hoo.

can't wait for camp! hope things go smoothly!

2005-06-06T23:00:00.000+08:00

cabbed with peyteng t sch. the taxi driver keep saying 'thankyou' throughout the journey hahas. lesson for 1 and a half hours only, pathetic -.- lunch-ing with nat and pt at pasta cafe. slacked there for hours haha. no one there anyways, so we chatted like non-stop larh.

planned bout our camp! gahh can't wait wait wait! ((((:

2005-06-05T21:38:00.000+08:00

sat
towned in the night, met jk.
looking high and low for some stuff/presents.
dwn to cine for crepes and icecream.
the strawberry fizz was wayy too nice (:
dwn t suntec t take a bus
was too lazy t go home by train.
home sweet home bout 12.30 am.

photos at est house uploaded! click.
happy viewing!

2005-06-03T20:41:00.000+08:00

brief recap tday
lessons were sucky, esp hist.physics was still alright. the no of people who turned up for physics was only 11, way pathetic.

dwn t tracy's house. slacked around played games, photo session again and then mahjong! we didn't gamble ok (: newbie at mahjong, i won the first 3 rounds! -whee.

home now. I HAVE NO MOOD NOW, SHITTY ASS.
good bye my fellow earthlings.

2005-06-02T21:33:00.000+08:00

haven recovered yet! grr.
lessons have been boring, really boring.
makes me kinda feel tt we're just wasting time.

lots of stuff going on today.lessons as usual,history first ; boo. geog lesson was so relaxing larh. did some schdna stuff, played some games on the schdna. chem practical was fun! did titration,i think it was the best ever since. (:

sushi making-session with peyteng and estella :D walked t ntuc with aud/pt. decided t take a cab though the journey was like so near? weather was way hot. bought all our sushi stuff at ntuc. the back of my ankle gt injured by the trolley haha, dun need t feel guilty pt. it's alright , really (: bought all out stuff for the making of sushi!then dwn t pt & est house. we ate till our hearts content. photo-taking session, we had it for like an hour? all the stupid faces haha. slacked around, had truckloads of fun -whee.

sister's away for a camp, lonely tonight. my neck aches when i turn t the left. AHH! torturing man.

2005-05-30T16:33:00.000+08:00

forget me not.

2005-05-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

unwell right now, ahh help me
down with a sore throat and flu.
in the midst of suffering. :((
i doubt i can have a good sleep tonight.

2005-05-25T21:14:00.000+08:00

nothing much the past few days.
have been home for quite sometime.
reading away the bk ; the purpose driven life
i love (((:

it has been a slacking period in sch now,like totally.
everyone mugging their asses off for mt o's.
good luck to these people for their paper on mon.

planned some kinda camp for the june holidays.
hope things will work out well
i just so can't wait.
FUN FUN FUN.

haven't been shopping for a long time
and seriously i mean long.
the last time i held a shopping bag was like ages ago.
shopping soon! i just so can't wait :D

God is always there for me >=]

2005-05-22T23:55:00.000+08:00

not much of the blogging season right now.
simply just to lazy.
it always comes down t this one word LAZY!

perfect score for accounts, f9 :/
everyone's studying for the mt o's.
i'm bored larh. sheesh

every sunday seems like a heart t heart talk with reney.planning to go run soon with her. we're having big stomach =X

eating alot, and i mean alot lately.
no idea why.
i never seem t go full. haha
the pigs are arriving.

just watched the italian job, damn interesting larh. the tv became more important hahas, for awhile. (:

2005-05-18T20:43:00.000+08:00

as usual, everyone gets back their results for the mids.
good or bad it all depends.
my results were not very satisfying to me.
papers still awaiting: maths1/2 ,accounts 2, ss sbq.
i just can't wait for maths.
accounts, it will be bad, red marks for sure.
papers i thought will turn out gd, turned out bad
and vice versa.
all unexpected results.

borderline passes chem/eng - pure disappointment.
failed history by a frigging mark
plus accounts mcq(horrendous) 8/30 -.-

having intensive mt revision for this week.
not me though, but i have t suffer 5 periods
doing my own stuff.
physics for now (: -passed mids!
sch has been boring these days. just slacking around.
though we're like slacking, it's still damn boring larh.
AHHH!

happy belated birthday t mummy! (17 may)
happy birthday t cousin; hannah! (18 may)

2005-05-15T00:07:00.000+08:00

it's all over (:
awaiting for the results right now.
i'm hoping it'll be fine x)

watched interpreter yest, interesting show
days have been boring after exams.
my sleepless nights!

chatting with rene now in msn.
big session hahas. haven talked for long, very long.
i love you rene, truckloads! :D

2005-05-12T12:44:00.000+08:00

it's been a week.
2 more papers dwn to go! (geog2 and a/cs 1)
have been studying like mad.
so much t study so little time.

the past week has been all bout books.
it will be over soon! ((:
but sadly, resultss.
gnona be a bad one.
hope it isn't so bad.

damn tired now.
slept at 4 am ytd
i almost died.
gonna have my long never ending nap (((:

2005-05-04T19:09:00.000+08:00

the party was fun (:
the cake was super duper biggy -yummylicious
had pizza and kfc. ate till i drop
the baby didn't cry when i carried them!
big achievement
cos my uncles and aunt carried them and they always cry.
i love my cousins (:
natalie and kimberly.

mids are HERE. right infront of my face.
will be taking my first b cheena paper tmr.
ahah sheesh.
gonna chiong!
the mids are gonna be BAD, real real BAD.
i have expected results.
bad ones :/

will not be blogging till the exams are over.
good bye for now. (:
sarah.

2005-05-02T01:15:00.000+08:00

yesterday
met jk and kenneth t jurong point.
bought mc's present.
met pt later t head dwn t eastcoastpark.
celebrate mc's birthday.
had fun, hope he liked the present we gave (:
we wanted t took a maxi cab,
but sadly there was 7 of us.
the meter fare was running fast
due t the midnight sur-charge :/

tday
studied with jk at drive-thru mac.
we were the last customers of the day(:
acheivement LOL.
i got a new no.
but i forgot wad is it x)

going t my cousins birthday party tmr!
both twins, coming 1 years old!
they are so damn cute larh.
i love them!

2005-04-29T20:21:00.000+08:00

damn i'm IRRITATED.
1) the weather is really getting on my nerves, well it has already been on my nerves.
2) my brother is crying non-stop, ahh irritating larh. just bcos my mum cancelled some housegrp meeting and his friends are not coming. so his crying like some has just died.
sheesh the crying plus the hot weather, is really really irritating.

speechday
sweating like mad all the way, with the band uniform. lucky we had the air-con interval, pheww. taking pictures all the way in the band rm. i'm gonna miss band,i really do. the enviroment, people, music. (it doesn't sound larh me larh :/)
the performance was alright, mr ho sabo-ing the percussion. kept zooming in on us. when i saw the screen i was like ahhh! shoo pls shooo.

2005-04-28T15:13:00.000+08:00

ahh! the weather is damn HOT lar. seriously, even after taking a bathe, you still can feel so hot and uncomfortable. irritating weather.

studied ytd with jk and gary. didn't have much of the mood t study. most of the time chatting away. ate the double fillet ((: fishy man. hahas

speech day tmr, shall see how things goes, i doubt it will be a good one though.

oh yes, my line just gt terminated. say good bye t it.

2005-04-24T19:18:00.000+08:00

it became worst that what i expected.
they not only terminated my line
they got my sister a new phone.
what the hell.
so much for studying hard,
i got this shit in return of my good results.
(the results are good to me)

gahhh, and so much for you being there,
you went away.
leaving me alone.

i'm really gonna explode anymoment.
this is how lucky i can get.
jackpot

2005-04-23T22:11:00.000+08:00

ahhhh, i'm feeling damn pissed off now. thanks to my parents.

my hp bill came 170 plus, for this month. it's ONLY this month ok,it's nt like as if it's everymonth. damn it, my parents are gonna cut off my phone line tmr. tt's what my dad said.
complaining that i have spent like 2000 buck on my hp bill. which is like more then 2 year la can? obviously the amount will keep adding up, like their don't. my dad ask me t go buy those card, like he will pay for me, damn they think i am rich or wad.

ahhhhhhhhhhhh fuck fuck fuck, sorry for the vulgarities. but i'm really pissed of to the extreme. treating me like this. it's nt as if my results are bad larh. like they can live w/o their hp, if i go missing one day. and i am never found, you know why.

destroying my life. detroyed my mood to study. destroyed everything. TOTALLY.

2005-04-21T19:14:00.000+08:00

shall do a recap (:

tuesday
got back our maths and ss test, was more satisfied with ss :D
speech day rehearsal, band's very first rehearsal for this year. it was very sucky. the songs played were so lousy, haven been playing then for a long time. had been playing too much of singapore rhapsody and ascentium already.

wednesday
no sch for me! :D woke up at 7 plus. was thinking of going to sch, but i had been late before so it's like detention after school. so ahh forget then (: sister didn't went to school either.

today
ran 2.4 for pe . after i ran finish the 2.4km i was seriously DYING. the world was so blur to me, i was dehydrated, my hands were cold. luckily, i survived 5 mins of PURE TORTURE. drank so much during recess, didn't had the appetite t eat. had t change back t our sch uniform felt so disgusting.
got back physics paper, i managed to reach my aim -phew
no history lessons! ( miss ong didn't come!) 2 periods free ((((:
then it rained to heavily, a tree fell LOL!
however,we still had our parade (full-dress)
i'm finally back home, just bathed (:
i feel clean now!

happy advanced birthday to mui tmr! sweet sixteen (:

2005-04-17T21:41:00.000+08:00

watched the pacifier ytd, nice show. go check it out people, it's worth ur $8.50 (:

very stress now, mid year is like weeks away. started on my maths, ahhh scary larh. have been doing some maths ques, infact i have too. if not i'll definitely die during my mid year.

saw mr tham at bk just now, i think he was with his wife. i saw reney babe too ((:

rene's new blog. check it out.

2005-04-15T14:43:00.000+08:00

wheeee, no more test (for the moment)
whole week of tests, over. (:
but sadly we jsut recieved our mid yr scehdule tday.
it's so yucky larh. can die

studied at bk ytd.
physics ahhhhh, madness.
peyteng's sister,peishan's birthday ytd.
went t sakae to celebrate.
thanks peyteng! i <3 you.

ahhh pgeog so crap.
hope i don't have to treat.
LOL , i'm officially broke already.

2005-04-12T19:24:00.000+08:00

i'm a happy person.
the happiness i felt has never been felt for such a long time.
it's a superduper fantastic feeling.
everything went well -phew
got free dinner there LOL
our bus came at like 9? wth.
so late can, we were the last school still at the conference hall -.-
silver silver silver silver!
thanks to our conductor my tay! :))))

everyone was still hyper today,including me!
no much mood to pay attention in class
chit chatting away with peyteng, LOL.
ss test tday was still managable, i hope
no band today! -wonderful!
mugging away from chem right now. gahhh
bored mann.

our efforts have all come to a good cause :D
i love band!