i don't knw what t do anymore.

new blog? too lazy t make one. make it private? no idea how too. AIYO, CHAM LA.

sorry i can't be perfect.

life is.

it's here, christmas. won't be sending greetings t most people. what's the point of wishing merry christmas when you are nt a single bit close t feeling merry. more of sorrows i have this christmas. i feel so disconsolated, no shoulder t lean no, no nothing. nothing left.

even when i thought today would be a pleasant day ahead. oh wells, so long as your happy. i'll be fine, i guess.

what's left of me. everything i do just seems t go bad. AHHH, lonely christmas.

leave me here t die.

i want t go drink my sorrows away. anyone?

i feel so lost, it doesn't seem t get better. ='[ i want you t be happy, even if it means me being sad.

i no longer have any mood t work, dragging myself there now. if only i could quit.

there's only one wish i have now. argh, i wanna die.

i've never cried in a train before in my teenage life, never. but after today this wasn't the case.

it's hard t last in our position. both working, staying so far away from each other. but all things are possible if we work hard on it, i believe we can. we've gt to work TOGETHER as one, just you and me, give and take. i just wish that you'll never leave. we've got t overcome it,we have to.

i love you kerny. i hope you do too.

started work (: i finally have smth t do now. lucky it's at woodlands near by -phew! new people new friends. bought a pony shoe,levis jeans and more. so broke now :/ my pay will be like end of januray? RAHHHS.

to kerny :
i'm sorry!! i knw your unhappy with me working and we won't have much time tgt now. but thank God i'll be free on christmas :D your gone in CCK! argh, damn. but you'll still be loved (((: massage your feet! (i need t get mine massage too)

gotta get t bed. full shift tmr (yawns) the mroe i see the jeans each day the more i get tempted t buy. got t rmb all the types of jeans. 599.593,577,581.579.581.582 ok la more t go so damn confusing. i want the levis square cut jeans, not the boot cut, slim will do!! CHRISTMAS PRESENT! HINTS. i knw you guys are wonderful people.

ICESKATING!! with xinyi on tuesday. the place as so crowded, has been a long time ever since i last ice skated , i still managed :D -3 cheers for rah!

job hunting with hannah; cousin . i was more of the timid one t ask for job vacancies. went t so many places. went for the interview at levis at potong pasir like damn far la. oh wells, meet kerny at orchard tt while cousin went off for a meeting.

had lots of fun tt day. OH YA, so damn sad la my everything is so small :/ my feet, i can't buy a havaianas sandal,the smallest is still too big. tried on the kids one AND i could fit it just tt my feet was a little bit more bigger -hurhur. have t buy a new slipper again INSTEAD. ass i can't find jeans which fits my butt, so damn sad la. thanks for the pants kerny (((: -hugs.

went back t yishun t watch KINGKONG. wasn't anymore spaces for us in twn. dwn t sakae t waste some time. ate ate ate ate, yummy yummy yummy. and king kong is so damn long la, 2 hours plus? our show start at bout 10.20 or smth ended at 1 plus, goodness. some person SLEPT during the show, guess he was t tired la. kerny kerny kerny.

went for this job thing at jurong west today. child care center, just a 3 days job. all i did was sit there see them perform/practice and earn money HAHA. walked round jurong point, things which caught my eye again as usual.

& now i'm eating the lollipop frm starbucks given by kerny (:

it has been 7 days. and finally i get t meet tanjuikern, the boyfriend ((((:

wanted t draw out some money but the queue just had t be this -------------- long all the way out the door -.-. so dwn town collected his pay. he was wanted t buy a pair of shoes but ended up side tracking buying 2 shirts and a jacket :/ the limited edition puma jacket nice :D what a pity no more for the girls. RAHHHS why am i so small, i wanna get bigger ='[

SORRY TANJUIKERN :( i just realised that i'm always adding more trouble t my self instead of solving them. shoot me please. kerny i'm sorry :/ rah loves you.

our food! -delicious


sakae sushi at sentosa!


after tanning (:


neoprint!



on the way home in the train

it's 5 days already :( and then now it's gonna be 7 days(a week) which is evenworst :((( . i hate the word WORK. then soom his gonna have chalet. shit all this stuff, bloody ass.

i want the subway cookie, this can make me happier. so soft and sweet, omg enough! didn't really ate today, just 2 chocolate doughnuts(small ones) and 3 hot dog buns(puny ones too). not really in the mood t eat. /:

i miss kerny, yes i do.

thursday was rather a boring day at first. stuck home, so called cherlyn. talked a little while and decided t meet up since we're both so bored at hm while the guys are gonna have their fun. meet her in town went t many shops, tried on clothes. ohmyohmy, i love this mango skirt :/ so damn nice.

then subway at lido, first time trying subway -opps. we were finding a place t sit so we saw a table ,sat down. secs later ' rah! you skirt gt chilli sauce!' oh dammit. there goes my day, the chilli sauce attack. the worst part, it wasn't a small patch it was a big one. thanks t cher who cleaned my skirt for me(: anyways, i love the subway cookies. who wants t go have subway!!! kim came down t meet us. the search for another skirt, not many pleased me.but then yea had no choice la. stupid asshole who put the chilli on the chair.

one more thing. all the pants i tried on, nothing is ever my size -.- don't talk bout the length that can be alter. but even the size 24,the butt area is too baggy for me. i need to have a bigger butt now! but then , i guess i'll have no choice. (that's so sad ok)



thats us(: cherlyn kim, rah (butties for life)

rah has no more fever (: but i still have a sore throat and flu.

sentosa tday with rene, mui and zhangyun. had sakae there for the first time, with tons of pictures (: the tide was very HIGH, 4 metres? that's very high compared t the usual tide in the day. oh yes and there's this oil spill, so no going into the water(: we had t use petrol t clean our feets t get the crude oil out. you must be wondering how we got the petrol, this beach petrol guy told us bout it. weird; using petrol t clean our feets haha. anyways, i'm too lazy t blog la :/ maybe rene will blog bout it.

i miss kerny kerny.

rah is sick :/ bad bad bad bad sore throat and flu. which makes it so hard for me t slp in the night. and then POOF! i felt so weird when i was in the cab on the way t kerny's place. i knew that i was gonna have a fever. and sadly i did :((
i'm so bad at taking tablets i still prefer syrup HA opps secret revealed. i can take a long time just t swallow a tablet. my body was so hot, i think i could go fry an uncooked egg or something. felt so dead, but thanks t kerny who took care of me. (((: with the tablet, freezing towels and the fever wrap thing. (:

last taken temperature 38.5 mins ago. just hope everything will be fine. my throat hurts badly now, wearing a sweater. feeling much better now, compared t just nw.

oh yes, took a panadol just now. i bit it, so damn bitter for that very moment when i drank some water, it tasted sweet after my 16 years of life, t me water is smth that has no taste AT ALL. but not at they very moment(: it's tasted so SWEET! goodness, i'm really sick. :/

i miss everyone , all the friends. everyone i knw (: hope we can all meet up again.

no idea if i can go tanning with rene, i'll be even hotter under the sun

watched saw Ii with kerny! since it was a NC16 show, while we were gonna enter, the women who tore our tickets was looking at me for seconds wondering if i was 16 or nt, sheesh. hello i'm 16 already(: months ago. the show's interesting, bloody but still nice la (: treasure life! that was what she show was about i think, ok nonsense.

had dinner at billy bombers, betty's roast chicken. the potato was super delicious! i guess that was the only thing i finished in my whole meal. the big fat drink (: sophia, orange, raspberry and more cant rmb all mixed. yummy!

i've been eating alot lately. i guess due t the boredness, all i do is eat and eat and eat. stuck at home so so bored. rather lazy t work too, everyone's working which leave me at home all the time!